The other day I caught myself missing a beautiful moment with my Son.
The whole Curing Decay journey can be very energy consuming for me as a parent. It is a big part of our daily lives. Protocols, making sure he takes his supplements, adding minerals to the water, rinsing, brushing, etc. I have to keep an eye on the progress and every time it is nerve racking. I am human, and as many of us have my moments of doubt. When these moments arise, I remind myself to "trust the process" but many of us know how hard that can be. I am doing the best I can as a Mother and as a Woman.
My Son and I were having a conversation a couple of weeks ago. He laughed and I automatically glanced at his top 4 teeth. Peeking and seeing how things were going. Is there more decay? Any chips? Discoloration? No. All is well. Back to my Son. By the time I was done peeking, he was ready to walk away. I missed the eye contact. That moment of connection, joy, happiness and that fuel that a parent gets from seeing their child happy. That moment will never be back. I realized that my worrying (which is pretty normal Mommy life) and thinking of the past and the future was taking time from NOW. How did I drift off like that? It is a feeling that I do not want to experience again. When I see myself drifting off, I remind myself to come back. "LIVE IN THE NOW!" I am going through the most amazing time of my life seeing my Beautiful little man grow. Everything else, comes after.
Will I ever experience Motherhood again? I am not sure. What this taught me is that this experience came to us for a reason as with everything. It came our way to simply teach and push me to be a better, more conscious parent. Our lives, diets and knowledge of how the human body works naturally keeps expanding. It is my duty to educate myself and teach my Son what good, holistic oral health consists of. Could if have taught him this without the decay? Maybe since holistic dentistry it is something that has always has intrigued me. After all, I am grateful that his little body was able to signal his deficiency early on.
Mamas: Look up. Look into your Child's eyes. Live that moment. Take it all in. They are telling you that it is all okay, that it will all work out and most importantly that they love you.
We are doing the best we can and that is simply all we can do. Let's live in the moment and keep pushing with LOVE.
~Love to All~
What a sweet reminder to us mamas to relax and enjoy. Sometimes I notice my hunched shoulders and then relax them. Feels much better :) Instead of repeating for the nth time "put your pants on we need to go," i find myself laying down on the floor by my child, like I have no where to go. And I ask "what's that?" or "oh the truck crashed?" haha. It's pure joy to look at, and listen to them with pure attention. What was I rushing for?
ReplyDeleteAnd that pic of you two is pure cuteness! :)